[ He remembers how desperate he felt. Thor wanted to go back to earth, but not like that, and when he arrived, having thought Loki was dead, he wanted to hold his brother and cry. The fact they went straight to conflict was agonizing. ]

I have lost you twice now. You don't know the nightmares I had, the emptiness in my heart. I kept it on the inside, but it was a wound that never stopped bleeding.

[ Thor had to keep it internal. That was part of their culture too, what was expected of a warrior, and what Odin expected of him. Thor feels very strongly. ]